April 5th, 2017
I remember you was conflicted
Misusing your influence,
And I wish I had that chance
But I never had wielded that much power.
Your light shined so bright
That it dimmed mine.
My rebellious soul,
Now your humble, peaceful servant.
Wishes for our future willowed in the wind
Desires dead on arrival
My back and ears dripped with blood
From the scratches your tongue lashings.
Amazing how a goddess
can turn any man to a mortal.
A shame how love
can’t see its own reflection.
Because I remember you was conflicted
Losing your influence
Unable to see your worth
Clouded by society’s pressures and my own.
You began abusing my love
Neglecting your pain,
Discrediting my character,
And cursing your own name.
The writing jumped off the page,
and landed on the wall
Unable to feel you,
my love unfulfilled.
Peace be still
as unmovable as my pride,
as quiet as your laugh
and as dormant as our happiness.
I lost my soul
Trying to save yours.
I used to think I was immortal,
Until you reminded me that I am not.
Now, I know why you were conflicted,
and couldn’t handle your influence.
you were the heavenly goddess
and I was just a man who was mortal.